Raising my Snoekies

I have always been a Betty Boop fan and when I was pregnant with Cara-Mia my mom bought me this super nice black with red lace pajama dress. Cara-Mia was born in the water but immediately afterwards I put the dress on. You can see the red lace in the first photo. Then with Ciane and Carmin Callisa I actually had it on as they came out. I should frame the dress Oh and how cute ... You can see Cara-Mia's feet in both the other two photos  

This was by far my hardest pregnancy ... To start with it was rather unplanned. My baby boy Ciane was only 4 months old (exclusively breast fed) when I fell pregnant. I was very stressed and emotional through out my pregnancy and had no idea how I would cope with three children. From the start we decided we were gonna have an unassisted birth. With my quick birth record we just thought it would be easier. So we prepared ourselves as much as we can. Then my mom (she is so awesome) picked up from my talking that baby was lying posterior. I read up as much as I could. Its just another way of normal as some pages said. But I was getting a little nervous. So again just like with Cara-Mia almost at the end of my pregnancy I started looking for a midwife. I felt we should have some one as back up for any emergencies. Luckily baby turned and I could relax. As always the last month was the worst! My belly was huge and Ciane was not walking yet. I had to run after my tree year old and so tore so...

'Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes it's that little voice at the end of the day that says, I'll try again tomorrow.' Sitting here on the floor in the kids room, waiting for the eldest to fall asleep. Can't help but think about the million ways in which I failed them today. I was too impatient, expected to much. The amazing thing about being a mom is knowing that they will still love you tomorrow no matter how bad today was. They will wake up (maybe every hour during the night, or in the morning) and still need you. They will smile when they open their eyes and mommy is right there. So many days I loose it and take my frustrations out in them. I wonder what I am doing here and how I ever thought I could handle this. But then you get a hug and a kiss, your three year old tells you, you are the best, and you remember what you are doing here. Tomorrow we will try again

37 weeks 61 kg 95 cm around Can't wait for this baby to come out now!!!

What a year, I am actually amazed I survived, then again its not over yet .... Pregnancy is so hard and it sucks! Now add a 3 year old who wants to rule the house and a very dependent almost 1 year old and you've got yourself a madhouse.  They wake up at 5 am with an energy level of a kizilion, always hungry. The one talks non stop while the other rolls down the tiolet paper, which he can now reach. There is toys and food everywhere, thank God for a maid every second day since my huge belly makes it a little hard to bend down at the moment. By 8 am before daddy is even awake Mister has to sleep again. And apparently there is nothing more satisfying than asking your mom 10 000 questions the more she tells you to please be quiet. Finally asleep the Madam is hungry AGAIN!! And oh we can be so very specific about what we want.  So now I have maybe an hour, Madam gets to watch one dvd. Do I take a bath or shower, do I get dressed, do I make myself breakfast or maybe just go lie dow...

Now time is really flying! Only a few more weeks then we meet our baby girl. Getting a little nervous because baby is lying posterior, but like some one said its just another form of normal. But from what I read I really hope baby turns. With all that is going on complications is the last thing I need. Me and hubby discussed her name again, he wanted us to switch the two names so she is Callisa Carmin, luckily that day her baby bag arrived, which already had the name Carmin on. Mommy wins yay!

In a months time my little boy will be 1 years old. I can't believe how time flew. And with Cara-Mia and the pregnancy it feels like I missed so much with him. Anyway he has 8 teeth already, and standing up against everything. We really hope he walks before baby comes. He is a very smart little boy and so much like his daddy. And I just love the affection he shows towards his big sister. He is always looking for Cara-Mia. That being said he is a real mommies boy, I can't dare just walk away. Chookie makes me smile so much, and with all that is going on he really is an amazing and easy baby.